Saturday, June 23, 2007

regrets...i've had a few

this is something that happened way back in those high school days. it has been on my mind ever since. not constantly, but more and more as my kids get older.

sara and i hung out with some boys who were about a year younger than us. not an attraction thing, but they were fun and one boy had a mom who would let us spend the night, and even call our parents for us. she was "cool" like that. she wasn't a pretty woman, not by any stretch of the imagination (think of the crooks' mom on the goonies movie). one day sara and i showed up at her trailer. (she had like 5 or 6 kids and lived in a 2 bedroom trailer) sara walks to the bedroom and knocks, goes in for a minute, then says to me "it's ok, come on back". me, i'm not thinking anything funny or weird, i walk back there and she is laying on her bed with one of her son's friends. (let me say this, he was about 16 at the time) i am so naive, i didn't think anything about it. it's a little strange, considering her son isn't even home, but they weren't below the covers and their clothes were on. we talk about whatever, i don't even remember what, and then we leave. after we left, i found out that this woman and the son's friend were "together". and not only that, but her baby, her 6 mos old baby, is HIS. now do the math my friends. 16 year old kid-6 mos old baby-9 mos for pregnancy= really disgusting and illegal. and the guy wasn't bad looking. not great looking, but not "hooking up with 40 year old goonies mom" ugly! anyway, you may be saying to yourself, what (besides the obvious nasty ol' lady and teen boy) is bothering me. well i will tell you. it is the fact i did nothing to stop this. NOT A FRIGGIN' THING! i should have told someone, called dfs, something. this was not only immoral and gross, but illegal and i didn't do a single thing to stop it. this guy was like 14/15 when this all started, and was stuck with this woman because of his son, that he couldn't even claim as his son because she was afraid they would take away her other kids. i felt really sorry for her son, he was a really nice guy, in show choir, and football. nice kid. i felt sorry for her other kids, i mean really, what kind of example is this?

anyway, i have felt soooo guilty about this. i know i was only like 16 or 17 when all this happened, but i was old enough to know this was wrong. i guess it scares me more and more because my kids are getting older and i am scared about the kind of people they will meet. i don't want them to be exposed to people like this, or even worse, get mixed up with them. i guess i hope they will be more convicted in their beliefs in what is right and what is wrong. i don't want them to witness something like that, but if they do, i pray they know the right thing to do and do it.

Friday, June 15, 2007

my dad

i finally did it. i went back to being a brunette. i got tired of the upkeep of highlights. well not so much the upkeep, but the brown strip that marked my part. i don't get in to the salon as often as i should if i want to be a blond. atleast if i want to be a blond that doesn't look like she belongs in a trailer park. so i went darker. back to my natural color. i think that in the last 10 to 15 years i have been my natural color 1 other time. since then i have been blond, varying shades of blond, but blond none the less. do blonds have more fun? i don't know, but i had 5 kids while blond, so i think i am due a change. i also decided to deviate from the "cut it as short as possible" bob i have been getting. i figure it i am not going to be blond i should at least leave it a little longer for jeff. he likes long hair, and blond hair. so i figure, i can do one for him. when i cut it short, i have been going blond. now that i'm dark, i figured i could leave it a little longer. anyway enough about my hair.

i tried to think of things to do about dads, you know with father's day on sunday and all. well i decided to do a 50 things about my dad list. i hope i can think of 50 things about him.
1. my dad's middle name is edward, and so is my oldest son's
2. my dad named me
3. i was named after my youngest aunt, and she is also my dad's goddaughter
4. my dad is one of eleven kids
5. he is the 4th kid, and the 3rd son
6. he has 3 kids
7. my dad has been married 2 times
8. my mom had a crush on my dad when she was in 6th grade
9. she is 6 years younger than my dad
10. he turned 24 two months after i was born
11. his birthday is the first day of fall
12. his best friend wrote a book about their childhood, and teenage years
13. i never read it, and i don't think i ever want to
14. my dad has dinner with my grandpa every week
15. my dad is a carpenter by trade, but is a project manager now
16. my dad has helped us build 2 houses
17. my dad built the house we lived in when i was a kid
18. some of my favorite memories are of float trips we went on with my dad and the Field family
19. my dad and his friends had a book club back when they were kids
20. my dad turned me on to books i would probably not read
21. my dad can't spell
22. i mean he really can't spell
23. even though he can't spell, he still writes notes in every card he has ever gotten me
24. my dad likes german shepherds
25. my dad had a crow when he was a kid
26. he found it when it was very young and raised it
27. he hated my cat "muffy"
28. my dad wanted to have 5 kids
29. my dad loves being a grandpa
30. he loves it when alex asks to go fishing
31. he used to sneak back to the private lake behind our old house with us to go fishing
32. my dad tells me he thinks i'm a good mom all the time
33. he doesn't tell me he thinks i'm a good housekeeper
34. he never badmouthed my mom when they were splitting up
35. he never badmouthed my mom's family
36. my dad always told me i could do anything
37. my dad is proud of me for being a stay at home mom
38. he loves my husband like a second son
39. my dad falls asleep around 9pm
40. he never let us sleep late
41. he used to say "suns up, you're up"
42. he didn't like it when i would bring stray dogs home
43. he didn't mind the turtles and lizards
44. i don't think he liked the snakes getting lost in the house
45. my dad only liked one cat, that was tiger
46. he actually spent alot of money on him when he got sick, trying to get him better
47. he did the same for our german shepherd, louise
48. he liked to name our dogs after people he knew that had rough lives, louise was a lady he knew that had lost 2 kids to a drunk driver, but still could smile.
49. i used to watch john wayne movies, and clint eastwood movies with him
50. my french teacher had a HUGE crush on my dad

well that's 50 things. i hope you enjoyed it. as you can see, my dad is supercool (yes, it is one word in this context, say it fast). try to think of 50 things for your dad.

Thursday, June 7, 2007

my nephew is 21

now does this seem weird to anyone else? i am 28 and my nephew is 21. his parents are 45 and 42. when alex turns 21, i will be 39. amazing.
we went out for his birthday. we being his parents, kim and jim, jeff's other brother, john, his wife, julie, jeff's sister, debbie, and her husband, billy, nathan, and jeff and i. we took him to fast eddy's. i had about 5 strawberry daiquiris and 1 purple hooter shot. i was a little buzzed. i think i talked too much. i love when kim drinks. she is one of the funniest people i have ever met. we just laugh and laugh and laugh. she is one of the only people i have ever met that actually was a virgin on her wedding night. and she and jeff's brother were together for like 4 or 5 years before they got married! i didn't know people actually did that! anyway, my other sister in law was really drunk. she was telling us about stuff we didn't want to know. i mean really didn't want to know. like can't look at her the same, laugh when i see her, get the heebie-jeebies if you think about it, type of stuff. i tried to talk everyone into taking my nephew to a strip club. his mom was not having it. i tried to tell her that if his mom got him his first lap dance, it would ruin the strip club mystique for him. he'd never want to go back. but she didn't believe me. we ended up going to the casino and losing money instead. oh well.

alex leaves for 4H camp tomorrow. he is sooo excited. he will be home on monday. he's going with a couple of friends from school. i don't know what all they will be doing there, but swimming is one of the main things. 2 times a day. he needs the exercise.

not much else is happening here right now. my friend chris is getting married. he lives in texas. i hope this girl knows she's getting a really great guy. i haven't met her. in fact i haven't seen chris in about 4 years. i think i had just found out i was pregnant with josh last time i saw him. he is living down there with his little boy, his soon to be wife and her 2 boys. perfect fit for him. i wish him the best!